TGIF – Thank God It’s Friday – does not apply to me for this week. Apart from the stress I am getting from schoolwork and project, me bursting out in rage wasn't exactly part of my to-do-list for Friday.

I simply have nothing else to say right now. Disappointments, frustration, tiredness… Most times it feels like I can deal with life, that everything’s ok. Then it all comes down to a simple incident to shook me back to reality.
Sometimes, I would just want to close my eyes tight as if to squeeze the images out.

I thought that if I slept early that day, this feeling of sorrow and anguish would go away. Well, the anger vanished, but it left me deflated and sad.
Oh...I am in a mess right now.

So right now, I am receiving an earful of I-told-you-so's from the little gremlins in my head.

*sigh and moan...

Perhaps I am going to skip school or pretend falling sick.The twisted joy of falling and being sick seems to be favourable.

For now, I’m going to try to shelve this writhing pain in me, avoid that person in school and terminate social contract. I'm torn doing this, I really am.

Why not forgive the person? I did. However the damage is done. Perhaps I should follow my friend's advice and suck it up.

Oh well, time to direct my feeling of despair into an eerie stillness....................................