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I seriously feel like I am ugly. Why? Look around, even those males who are under the category of 'average' or 'unattractive' gets a good looking gf.
Which makes me wonder, which category am I in?
No, I am not desperate. Just jealous.


Oh! Life's intricacy!

Sometimes, somewhere in life, you will fall in love with this particular girl and each time you are close to her, you will feel out-of-sync. However, here is the kick, you know that you are probably not her type. It hurts being around her.
My options? Pretend she isn't there. Rather then having my heart battered and giving myself false hope, perhaps the only decision left is ignorance. And each time our eyes met, I will turned and darted my view cautiously.
I know, its a foolish way of doing things but saying " I love you" , its so unnerving because you will probably get rejected.

I am a coward.....I know.

The love which you can't get grows the strongest but yet, it hurts the most.

Reason being why I am acting so is because I just feel like I am not good enough for her. Like there are other men out there who is far more good looking than me. Perhaps letting her go would be a better choice.


I hate watching love shows. I had officially stopped watching those love shows, especially those which comes from korean, because in each of the romantic scene I had witnessed, it had sent spears of loneliness through my being. Perhaps that is the main reason why I had stopped watching television altogether.


Sometimes, we men may misunderstood woman's action. To illustrate, if this girl hit me in a playful way when I made fun of her, we men, or perhaps just me, will think that she likes me.


Of course, some people may ask me, "Do you know what is the difference between love and lust?"

Love is patient, love is kind. It has no envy, nor it boasts itself and it is never proud. It rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker. Love protects; preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life.

Well lust is sex and perhaps its the opposite of love.


My chances to actually get a girlfriend are small, not to say non-existent due to my weak heart. of course, the closest thing I had ever had with a girl was a smile i suppose.

During my young age, I didn't even dare to even face a girl because back then, my face was infested with pimples which was occupying majority of the space in my face. My face itself looks like a war zone as my eyes, nose and mouth fought for territorial space against the pimples.
Combined with my unkempt curly hair, I felt that she should be spared of the sight of an ugly creature standing right in-front of her. I felt that my appearance will offend her eyes. My face is not worth looking at .




However, not all is lost. I am glad that I live in Singapore because the ratio of males to females are 1:1000. (I saw that in an article)



Hmmm, perhaps I should probably put a bright neon sign right above my head saying

"I will date any girl"
 Now that is desperate

Oh, Where art thou be Juliette?